Nostalgia

For the past hour I have been looking at old pictures. Pictures of family and friends. Pictures of places and things. Pictures of me or ones taken by me. Looking at all these pictures is making me really nostalgic. I once again want to relive those moments that have long gone. I want to experience all those feelings that I felt. I don't know what is this and why is it happening, but this bittersweet feeling is adding a dash of excitement to my heart. It is leaving nothing there but a sweet feeling of joy and happiness.

I am thankful to Allah that He has bestowed upon me such lovely moments in time (captured on camera and otherwise). I wish I can experience many more like these and better. Ameen. :-)

How Futuristic Should We Be?

I was wondering that how good it is to be futuristic. And to what extent should we be futuristic. Should we take up the little things that are going on in our lives and build big stories upon those to get a glimpse of the future? Even if we do that, should we always be scared of the unforeseen and build up a story that portrays the future as going from bad to worse?

I have no answers to these questions of mine. But I know that I have done this in my life. On some occasions I thought so much of the future that I scared myself. And due to that scary imagination, I decided not to tread those paths any further.

I also know that when this kind of behavior is shown to me, I despise it, especially when it is related directly to me. This might indicate that I have double standards; that I choose one thing for myself and something else for the other person. That is why I am confessing that I do this.

I still don’t know if one should be so futuristic about stuff. I also don’t understand this feeling and the tendency to drift away from the present only to picture a darker picture of the future. But whatever it is, it is excruciatingly scary. I have lost people in the past on these grounds. I wish I would not lose any more.

Continued Pursuit of Hot Water Caused a Casualty

The pursuit of the hot water continued today as well. But today there was a casualty. Yesterday the frost on the car wind screen was very thick. I used hot water to remove it. Keeping the picture of yesterday’s frost in my mind, I thought today would be same. So I asked my mother to heat up some water while I got ready for office. When it was time to leave, it was time to take the water with me. The available container was a plastic bottle. As soon as the hot water was poured into it, it crumpled. ;-)

Yes I know, I should have known better than to pour that hot water in a plastic bottle. But at the spur of the moment it happened automatically. Thank god the bottle withstood the heat and only crumpled instead of turning into a sieve full of holes. I was able to transport the water up to the car where I splashed it over all the glass I could see on the car. ;-)

When done, I threw the bottle away as keeping that wrinkly bottle was going to be of no use. That bottle was the brave casualty in today’s hot pursuit of hot water. May it rest peacefully in the dustbin.

Facing Cold Water is Nothing Less than Valiance

The geyser in my house has been broken for quite some days now. Since it is winter, taking a bath with cold water is simply out of question. Also when the water is so freezing it eats through the flesh, all the way down to the core of the bones. (Ok I am exaggerating a bit, but really, the water is really cold these days.)

To get hot water, we all have turned to the conventional methods of heating it on a stove and then using it in the washroom. My mother had been helpful in this regard and was heating water for us all. But yesterday, I stepped forward and made up my mind that I will perform this task myself. And so I did.

I took out Mum’s largest utensil, filled it with water, lit the stove and carefully placed the water filled container on the fire. It was a painful one hour wait before the water boiled. When I did I felt happy at my achievement. I took a bucket to the kitchen, poured the boiling water in it. I then took the bucket to the washroom where I turned on the cold water tap on it.

Just when I did that, I remembered that had not brought my clothes from the closet. So I left the tap of the gushing cold water just the way it was and ran to my room. I thought that I would be quick enough and would get my clothes in a wink of an eye. Thinking I was successful in my endeavor to act like “Flash” I returned to the washroom with my clothes.

And as soon as I went in, a piercing scream filled the entire house. It was nobody else’s but my very own. Most of you would have probably guessed by now the reason of my powerful shriek. But for those of you who are still baffled, let me explain.

Well my over efficient self had left the cold water running in the bucket. Since the water was boiling, I needed to mix ample amount of cold water to make it fit for taking a bath. What had happened was that the tap water was flowing very fast, and by the time I reached it, most of the hot water was gone. Instead of turning to a nice warm temperature, the water had turned cold. *Shudder*

I felt really stupid at that time. At the same time I burst into laughter as well at my dim-wittedness. It took me a couple of minutes to decide my next move. I opted for going into battle. And so I did. And when I got hit by the first cannon, i.e. a mug of cold water, another screech emerged, only to be silenced by ability to self-mute.

The battle was ferocious. Many a wounds were sustained by the brave soldier. She narrowly escaped from getting frozen, however, she survived. ;-)

Commitments

For quite some time now, I am finding myself in situations where I am unable to meet my commitments. Small or big, made long ago or a little while ago, I am failing to meet them lately. I don't know what is wrong with me. And due to all this i keep landing in awkward situations. Sometimes I am hurting people and sometimes annoying them.

Maybe the problem is becasue of the reason that I commit without thinking that whether I would be able to fulfill the promise or not. Or maybe I just need to learn to say 'No'. I am trying to figure this out. Hope to keep the commitment breaking damage to a minimum till I find a solid solution.

Benazir Dead!

I heard this news in the evening but was unable to believe it. In this case i implied the rule of 'seeing is believing'. I wanted to actually see a body or something on the TV to be sure of this. I hadn't seen any body but the news blurted out from all the news channels made me realise that this was true. And finally they showed a coffin as well but that didn't matter at all. I was already in shock at what had happened. Not only me but my whole family and the whole nation. It was a very unpredictable event, an unfortunate assassination.

I was not a Benazir supporter but still i feel very bad at what has happened. I am truely sorrowful at heart this time. I just hope and pray that may Allah rest her soul in peace. I also pray that may Allah have mercy on our country and keep it stable. Otherwise a civil war is just around the corner. May Allah keep us all safe! Ameen.

Find Yourself

These are the lyrics from a song by Brad Paisley. And all I could say after listening to these was "How true!". I wonder how many of you out there agree with me.

Where you go through life
So sure of where you’re headin'
And you wind up lost and it's
The best thing that could have happened
‘Cause sometimes when you lose your way it's really just as well
Because you find yourself
Yeah that’s when you find yourself

All Alone

Today I am all alone in my department in the office. Two team member have already resigned and the third one is not present. Am feeling really strange. This is reminding of my early days in iENGINEERING. At that time I was not only the only one in my QA department but was also the only girl in the office for quite some time. Then another girl joined and proved to be a breath of fresh air for me. :-) A new team member was supposed to join today, but she hasn't showed up yet. I am guessing she is not coming today, if at all coming. ;-) It is not that there are no people or no other girls in the office right now, but I have a feeling of being alone. There are pleasures of solitude as well, but right now all I am feeling is lonely. Wish another breath of fresh of air would come soon. ;-) hehe

A Dash of Pink in My Way

Yesterday I had to walk for a couple of minutes before I could reach my ride to the office. On my way I saw a pair of lovely pink roses. A shutterbug that I am being these days, I couldn't resist myself. I didn't have my digital camera with me but had my mobile. So i took not too many but just two shots of the flowers. The flowers in real were really lovely but the snapshots are also quite cool. Take a look and decide for yourself:

Pink Roses (Portrait)

Pink Roses (Landscape)

B is for Bubble, G is for Gum

So, how many of you like making bubbles with a bubble gum? Well for one, I love to do that. Whenever I am chewing gum I am on to the task of making bigger better bubbles. I don’t always succeed in making my bubbles very big, but I sure do enjoy the activity. Doing this, I do end up with aching jaws and a hard-as-stone bubble gum between my teeth, but I still never give up on trying achieving bubble perfection. ;-)

It’s something fun for me to do and I don’t even stop even when I am in my office. Maybe the people watching me do this get irritated. And maybe the pops of the bubbles irritate people more. But what can I do? Every time a gum is in my mouth, getting chewed, I have to make a bubble out of it. I guess it’s in my blood.

Recently I saw a video clip on the Internet in which a girl was making bubbles inside bubbles. She made a huge bubble, and then she made another bubble inside that one. And just like this she made 4 bubbles, one inside the other. It was a cool sight. Now that is my next target. Wish me luck! ;-)